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[Private to Mindy]

Let's get on with this sham. I don't have a file, so there's not much point to this. Unless you're prone to detail your life's story.

[A beat. No? That's what he thought.]

Didn't you have a warden? [As if he doesn't know.]

[Public]

Seems like everyone's woken up and returned just in time. Or just in time for the Admiral to pull one over on us. How long do you think we'll be waiting, really? A few more days? A week?

[He's already annoyed (when isn't he). He's been carrying around extra ammunition, an extra pistol, and he'd like the penny to just bloody drop already.]

Maybe he'll even stretch to a month.

[There's some clinking, a stopper coming loose, and the sound of something being poured.] Cheers for the forewarning, Admiral.

[Private to the Admiral]

Not that I expect a reply, but I don't suppose you'd care to weigh in on this?

[This is not the face of a man well content with life. This is the face of a man pissed off at having slept for God knows how long.]

First he puts me to sleep for weeks, then he asks me to look after a child. I'm beginning to wonder if he actually expects redemption.

Weren't we just in port? [Fuck this ride, fuck the Admiral, grump grump grump.]

[Private to Ellie]

Meet me in the gym.

[Private to the Admiral]

I would comment on the fact that I'm a grown man and haven't written a letter to Father Christmas in decades, but I've the feeling it will fall on deaf ears.

Take your letters and sod off.

[And because he literally cannot resist, a check list.]

( a list! )

[When the video clicks on, Bond moves away from the screen to sit forward on his bed, scooping something off the comforter in the process. The communicator is propped up on a chair in front of him; the cushion is just barely visible at the bottom of the screen. Both his hands are full - in his right is a glass, with two fingers of a dark, orange-gold liquid; scotch, a gift from Pepper for Christmas. He doesn't have much more left.

And in his left hand is a necklace - specifically, an Algerian love knot. His thumb keeps running over it, his attention settled on the necklace like it's the only thing that matters. He isn't drunk, but he might be heading in that direction.]

Before I came here, I was in a bar, in Bolivia. The man I was meeting was CIA, and I suppose as close to a friend as I have. I don't make friends, generally. I have colleagues, and acquaintances, and enemies. Felix is a good man, though. The CIA had a capture or kill order on me, but he gave me the intel I needed. Greene was meeting Medrano at the Perla de las Lunas. That was my chance. That was our chance.

There was a girl, Camille. Former Bolivian secret service. When she was a child, Medrano killed her father, raped her sister and mother and killed them, too, all in front of her. He set fire to the house, and left her to die with her family. [This isn't just rote information; he sounds in control, but there's anger, under the surface.] Orphans make the best agents. She escaped, obviously. I don't know how long she's waited for this opportunity. [Because he doesn't know exactly how old she is or was, but.]

I wanted her to have her revenge. Because I don't think I'll have mine.

[He takes a long drink, glances down at the necklace, and stands to pocket it. On his way back down, he grabs the communicator, holding it up to eye level now. He holds up the glass - there's less than a finger left now - contemplating it.]

I think I've started drinking too much. That's part of being a double-oh, you know - drinking. So many covers require blending into high stakes environments. But it's different, here. Everything's sedentary. I feel it more.

[He knocks back the rest of the glass with a vague shrug.] But it's better than grieving.

Let's lighten the mood some, shall we? Ivy told me, on my first day here, that I'm featured in a series of books, and movies. Tell me about them. I think they might be absurd fiction, but I'm concerned there will be a degree of accuracy that I'm extremely uncomfortable with.

[Private to the Admiral]

Changed my mind. [He smiles, but it's more like a grimace.] Give Ivy a lifetime supply of weed killer instead.

[There a pause, then a pained sound as he shifts on his not-as-comfortable-as-it-ever-looks infirmary bed.]

Who are you? You bring back the dead, you compel us to write these lists, you use fucking magic - what are you? Go on. Give us a hint.

[Public]

[Sup, Barge. It's been quite some time since his initial message to the Admiral: the anger and pain have been spectacularly muted. He's trying hard to focus on the video, but his eyes wander now and then. Fighting morphine is a miserable fucking experience, but at least nothing hurts.]

Well.

[His mouth works for a moment, jaw flexing, tongue poking at the side of his cheek. Cottonmouth is also unpleasant.] Death doesn't stick.

Case anyone was wondering.

[He blinks hard, but his eyes go wide then close completely, and it's a long moment before they snap open again. He should be sleeping, but he's fighting it, and it's making him much less than lucid.] Put her in the - don't touch her. Don't touch her.

[And he's just managing to shut the feed off before he drops the comm.]

[Infirmary spam]

[His...everything hurts.

Pain isn't new to him, not nearly, but this is unlike anything else he's ever felt. It's nausea, and a tightness in his throat like it's still swelling shut, and a burning in his palms like he's touching - he didn't know what it was like. A live wire? Acid? Sometimes he dozes, and forgets what it was like to feel his organs fail, listen to his last breaths, feel his heart stop. Sometimes he's acutely, painfully awake, staring hard at the ceiling and trying to force his mind to go blank.

It isn't easy. There are only a few thoughts in his head, and none of them can be settled.

He thinks of the ship, of his predicament: it's real, he was pulled from Bolivia into space to redeem himself for - well, for several murders, he imagines. There are worse people out there. At least he kills for a reason.

Usually.

He thinks of Poison Ivy, and the way he'd been powerless to disobey her, and the way her skin had killed him. When that fills his head, he looks around him for a weapon of some kind, just in case. But here there's no scalpel to dive for, no blunt instrument to hide beneath his pillow. He doesn't like it, and it keeps him wary and alert.

But when he dozes is the worse.

Then he thinks of his breath rattling in his chest, and of his throat closing, and of everything going black. He thinks of a red dress in blue water, and bloody lips, and nausea always sets in again.

Everything is wrong, here. Everything.]

[Bond has been laying low, for the most part: investigating quietly, observing, looking for the Admiral and the Bridge and all the other things people initially told him he'd never see or find.

It galls him that they were right.

He's also spent his time half convinced that this is all a drug induced dream meant to obtain information from him. He still isn't sure either way, honestly, so when the video clicks on, Bond's face is inscrutable, because you're getting nothing from him, Quantum. When he talks, it's easy, smooth, because he is a very good bluffer.]

Suppose this is real. Suppose we are actually on a ship meant to cure us of our villainous ways. Tell me how it works. Tell me how often it works. And what do the wardens get out of it?

[He smiles, and it's easy but doesn't reach his eyes.]

While we're here, I've learned from my mistakes, 'Admiral.' [The inflection is small, but present: he really means Quantum.] Kindly send me back to live the quiet retired life, if you please. [There are much more important things than his immortal soul, or whatever the fuck this is supposed to be about, at stake after all.]

[Private to Ivy]

It strikes me that I may or may not owe you an apology.

[Private to Lark]

Heard anything?